Don't Know.

I have always wondered what it means to actually do something with yourself.

They say "Boy, go and do something with your life"

Then I wonder what that something is. Are we supposed to get menial jobs, that you return home to your 1.5 kids and your wife that may or may not be addicted to valium and cheating on you with the pool boy? Should we go to college, only to arrive... Arrive being the operative word.

I feel as if just "doing" is so...pathetic isn't the word...meaningless. I think it's meaningless to just be at a level that you enjoy, and while being at that level, you stay there. I feel that people should strive to be more. Doesn't everyone want to improve themselves?

Of course not. There will be people who are satisfied with where they are.

I personally don't understand how they can live this way.

But then it boils down to whether you believe that there is a reason. Is there possibly a reason that we should live? Why don't we just kill ourselves in the bathtub listening to Tubthumping by Chumbawumba, throwing the radio in to our watery ending? This would skip straight to the answer, if there is a purpose. And then we'd deal from there.

However, if you do believe that life is worth living, and that the end can wait, why wait? Why should we wait. That was a statement more than it was a question, because the statement deems the mentality is more important than the questioning mind. There are people who, like a great philosopher said (Soc, Plat, Aris?) "The unobserved life is not worth living." There are those that live, and that is all. They exist, standing, sitting, doing what they are expected. Thinking what they feel everyone believes they believe.
But is this good enough? Shouldn't we ask everyday "Am I doing this right? Am I doing this, the word this being so ambiguous that I can't even fathom a single meaning of this, right?"

I personally ask myself everyday, when I wake up and when I fall asleep, "How can I make my life better today? What was it yesterday that I can improve upon, and what shall I do tomorrow in order to make sure that doesn't happen again?" If we are not striving upward, shall we linger?

But then, the question should be what is right? What makes my opinion more valid than those who, I say, just exist? That is true.

Take the example majority versus minority. If the majority values monetary assets as their false idol, and the minority values interpersonal relationships as their false idol, who is right? Who's idol is more real?
And the answer would be no one's, right?

In actuality, correct. But because the majority controls, they are 'right'. At this point, they dictate what it is we should believe. They believe that this designer bag is more fabulous than this one. This value is more important than that. You are more important than they.

In the end, though, what does it all mean? Just because the majority is right right now, does that mean that they are true (For lack of a better term)? If there is an eternal judge, would he say "YUP, you guessed that the D&G jacket that you got for 30% off that still cost you 350 dollars is right"?

But then, we're dealing on such a level of un-sureness that no one, even those that propose they know, don't know.

That's my problem. I want to know. Whenever someone says "Oh, it was nothing." I say "FCKINGTELLME". Because I feel that if I don't know, there will be something haunting. Something that will perpetuate to my demise. What if that something I don't know, winds up being the one thing that could have benefited me? Now, that's such a correolis effect theory that it's ludicrous to talk about.

We don't know, anything. And that I feel is where we all wind up winding up. Those who have faith, may say they know. They read a book about it all. But they don't know. There will be those that say that they know the universe was created by a bang, rather than a whimper. But they don't know.
I don't even know if I like the new cast on the real world because that one guy tried to prank the other dude, but wound up getting him sick. It's crazy how much we don't know in this world.

Edit:

Five minutes later.

This is a philosophy. So discuss. Or don't. Either way, if you have read this, I've made a mark. It can be so subconscious that you may never see it in your daily life, even a day in your life, but it's there. You'll sit there at your desk, or standing holding a cup of gin and juice (Laid back), with your mind on your money, and possibly money on your mind, and contemplate "What am I doing?" And just contemplating that made your life a little better, more substantial, more worthwhile, more real. From there, we can all work together to be able to say "Shit, I still don't know.... SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOT SHOTS."