Welllllllll

So I tried again today
To restore my faith in human kind, and the ability for people to have the capacity to reciprocate generosity.

What I did was smile and verbally say "hello" to a middle aged woman walking her dog on campus.
She didn't have earphones. Had sunglasses on. Walking a dog. So I thought "Maybe she'll say 'Hi' even maybe on accident. It's possible."

So I did it.

"Hi" :)

She stared straight ahead and walked her dumb ass dog right past me.

I walked into a tree about two feet ahead of me, just to make sure I wasn't invisible.
I took a picture of my face, to make sure I didn't have the word "Rapist" written on my forehead.
Checked my id to make sure my last name wasn't Swayze, and I wasn't in the fucking movie "Ghost". I even touched a jolly black woman on campus to try and make contact with the mortal world.

She screamed and slapped me.

Then I looked down. Pants on. Good. Zipper up. Nice. Basic functions of living in society were in tact, and I wasn't insulting any one.

Maybe I should do that.

Maybe I should take my pants off, write the word "PEDO" on my forehead, and just go around touching people. Then they would recognize me.

This is probably how public nudity accompanied with insanity begins.

Or just jump down into a well. Maybe if I just live there for a couple days, some unsuspecting pedestrian or bicyclist will fall down into it. Then they'll be forced to say something.
Kind of like this.

*Pedestrian falls down*
Me: Why, hello!
Pedestrian: *Screaming in pain, because they fell down a fcking well*
Me: OH MY GOD! WON'T YOU PEOPLE JUST SAY HELLO ONCE?! JUST ONCE IS ALL I ASK!
Pedestrian: *Still screaming*
Me: NO NO, DON'T. YOU SAY HELLO!
Pedestrian: *Screaming in agony. About to pass out because of the pain*
Me: NAH UH. NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. YOU STAY CONSCIOUS AND SAY 'GOOD DAY'
PUT THE LOTION IN THE FCKING BASKET!

That last line was a reference to a movie. If you recognize it, nice.


I'm at the point to where I may never return to being nice to people. Is this the shitty OC attitude that is so famous in Nor Cal, known as the "Hella rude" mentality? Because it's really fucked up. I hope I don't adapt to this way of life, because I kind of liked how I was before.



Lyrics that fit the situation:

Dig
Incubus

If I turn into another
Dig me up from under what is covering
The better part of me
Sing this song
Remind me that we'll always have each other
When everything else is gone.

We all have a sickness
That cleverly attaches and multiplies
No matter how we try.

We all have someone that digs at us,
At least we dig each other
So when sickness turns my ego up
I know you'll act as a clever medicine.
___________________________________________________________________

Oh, and I got a letter today.
I loved it like crazshee. I'll post the sonnet letter up on the blog in a bit.